Imagine every joint in your body has been hit with a hammer. You know they would throb, ache, swell and undoubtedly capture an inordinate amount of your attention. Days like today make me think of these interesting analogies. The pain is a like a full-body, crushing blow.
The throbbing and painful feet, toes, fingers, hands, back, butt and pelvis are only the beginning. Accompanying that ravel is a headache that feels like the one you've had after trying to quit caffeine; remember? It's a strain to stay mobile, but it's required of a Mom. I am steadfastly committed to that--my only day job. Some days I wonder if I'll complete all the tasks at hand. Other days, I simply don't. Emotionally, that's also a crushing blow.
Back in the days of my youth, I can remember working two and even three jobs. Never sleeping. Eating on the run--living on vegetarian soft tacos or Mexican pizzas. A good, home cooked meal was pasta or a can of vegetables. Life was easy. It was possible to clean house, party and handle any of the responsibilities that life threw my way. Now, it's all over.
Each day is escalating into a frenzy. I'm frenetic. It's difficult to think straight, while working through the pain. My saving grace, now, and focus is getting finished in the car so I can take something. I could never have foreseen my life taking this direction. Nevertheless, drugs are my friend now and my resource for managing the pain--and the day. It's, most definitely, a crushing blow.
Bibliography
http://arthritis-symptom.com/Psoriatic-arthritis-symptoms/
http://arthritis.about.com/od/pa/a/symptoms.htm
http://www.spondylitis.org/about/psoriatic_sym.aspx
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