Thursday, September 10, 2009

Lumping it all Together

While listening to her words, things began to move in slow motion. The air was thicker and my heart slowed down, then slowly sank into my stomach. Again, I will go down the cancer road. I walked it earlier this year and now it is calling me again. The lesion, said my doctor, had not grown. That was good - it's big enough. But now, I have a new one growing. This is number three this year.

My doctor didn't like my suspicious thyroid lesion; so I gave it up in surgery. Then, the large one hiding near my ovary passed the needle test. Now, another. Plus a cyst on my other ovary. The radiologist labeled it "complex." That's an understatement.

So, all my doctors sound worried. My arthritis is not improving with steroids, anti-inflammatories, Methotrexate or Humira--so maybe there's something else going on. Could I have cancer? What a notion. You know I've been online searching since yesterday, looking for symptoms to see if cancer makes sense. No surprise that I have all the symptoms of ovarian cancer; and have had them for two years.

Now the worst part is yet to come. The part I loathe. After a year of waiting; I wait yet again. I wait for an answer to my blood test. Wait for the doctor to refer me to a surgeon. Wait for the surgeon to say that we should probably open it up and take it all out. They can have it; just hurry.

Bibliography
http://www.emedicinehealth.com/lymphoma/article_em.htm
http://www.ovariancancercenter.org/basics/symptoms.cfm
http://www.humira.com/PsoriaticArthritis/Default.aspx
http://ovariancystfacts.com/complex-ovarian-cysts/
http://www.medicinenet.com/methotrexate/article.htm

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